Glossy Train Tracks

WOOP, there it is. Looks like you've taken the time to type in my https:// address, hop in your mobile car, and zoom through infinite 0's and 1's to find my blog. I'm impressed by your adventuring skills. You've earned a gold star for the day.

If you're reading these words, it means you're important to me. No, really. Anyone who takes the time to sit down and read a little bit from me, whether I know it or not, literally means the world to me. Even if it's just one person (here's to you, my Tuna fish).

Sentimental mumbo (true) jumbo over. I'm late night-blogging-though it probably isn't going to be late at night when this is posted-so I'm not quite sure what will make it onto the page tonight. But whatever does, for your sake and mine, I hope it makes sense.

Today, I was reminded that the present is what you make it. And what you do is by NO means determined by what other people think of what you do. When we conform to what we think other people want from us, we lose something integral to ourselves: our identity. That may seem redundant, but if you think about it, what is more important in being yourself than really being yourself?

We shouldn't worry what outsiders think we are doing, and we shouldn't worry about how our actions and choices are perceived. Everyone sees the world through their own lens, under their own hanging-police-station lamp, from their own vantage point in the tallest tree in their mind's eye. If everyone sees it different, how are we supposed to meet everyone's expectations???

(Psst, I have the answer....we don't). We don't meet people's expectations. At least, I know I don't. We are always going to let someone down, at some point in our lives. But failure doesn't change who we are, and it certainly doesn't take away our identity. It reinforces it, actually, as long as we take the initiative to get back up once we fall.

Investing in what you love, and what you enjoy, is always worth it. Never consider it a loss if you spend time doing what you are passionate about, especially just because someone else calls it wasted time. If it means something to you, something more than momentary distraction, it must be worth it. It is a part of you, and it's a part you don't want to lose.

So if you love writing, go write. If you love doing integral calculus, you go integrate. If you love running, go kill it on the road. If there is someone you truly love and care about, go spend some time with them. If you like internet stalking,

...Don't do that. Go outside or something.

But really, though. I don't know if this makes any sense, but, if your day isn't going that great, or if you feel down, just remember: I'm here, behind this computer screen, sincerely hoping and praying that your day gets better, and you do something that you love today.

I wish you happiness, you glossy train tracks, all of you.